Yes, it's been 8 months or so since I last posted on this blog. Facebook and Twitter have proven to be an easier and more direct way to communicate. But really, who I am blogging for? An anonymous audience, my dear friends or for myself. Really, it's for myself. So, maybe I blog every day, more likely I blog once in a blue moon. But today I felt like writing. I needed to write. I'm not sure what I'll come up with, but that's okay too...
Well, I have have become a working mommy. Ever so much out of focus, and not capable of holding just one simple job...I have collected 4 part time jobs, that are keeping me super busy...and the most important job, 'mommy' blessedly remains.
Job #1 : Camp - Art Lady - Two Months a year of 24 hour a day intensity. Ten Months of preparation.
Job #2 : Pottery Lady - I actually got HIRED to work in a "Paint your own Pottery" studio. AND I LOVE IT...it's kind of like being the Camp Art Lady all year round.
Job #3: Digital Video Editor/Producer - sound crazy, right? Not really. Together with my co-movie producer from camp, we are embarking on a new venture. We make Bar/Bat Mitzvah Montages, Video Biographies and Video Portraits...we have a really exciting and challenging project already contracted for, and we are hoping that this little venture turns into a very big venture.
Job #4: Jewelry Designer - So, funny story...last November, a friend who is involved with my school's PTA asked if I wouldn't mind putting together a little something for a craft show they were holding at the elementary school. "Sure, whatevs" I replied. I made these cutesy little necklaces (and frankly sold them at rock bottom prices) and sold a veritable TON. (In fact, I think the other crafters were a little annoyed that day, because I was the only one that sold anything!) They were so well received, I started receiving phone calls from people wanting to buy more! I am now selling them at two local retail venues, I have another order to custom design another 150 necklaces for a fund raiser, and it feels like it's getting bigger than I could have possibly imagined. Fingers crossed.
So 5 days a week, I am officially working. I get home at night, and like any good working mom, I get dinner on the table, and prep for the next day to do it all over again. I'm working, working hard, but it's so much fun to be doing something other than laundry and grocery shopping, that it almost feels like I'm playing. I'm sure this will wear off. But I'm enjoying it for now!
So this is the hard part. I finally get "MOMMY GUILT". My girls are missing me. My husband is missing me. I'm not there after school, with a snack or a few word of encouragement. The laundry pile got EVEN bigger. It's hard to keep up with the housework.
Having two full fledged teenagers now, has made life even more mentally taxing. It has gotten so hard, that I almost laugh at my angst about raising a 13 year old.
This is hardly a well written post. This is hardly a meaningful post.
I'm living a chaotic life right now, and this post is pretty reflective of the tone of my current state.
The End.!
